Life According to the Hyper Radioactive Neophyte

It has come to me where my status in life is.

It's been over a year since I graduated from school, it's also the time when I decided not to find a job right away and take the time to really think what I want to do and at the same time have some rest. Kind of let it all loose, relax from those fifteen years of academic life, at the same time planning about the future.

So after less than a year I decided to actively find a job to finance my plans. The first tries I would have to say are good, they invited me for interviews, I responded to some of them. Yes, some. I didn't go to some of the interviews for the reason of I'm not just feeling it. This is a fact I have yet to share to my small circle of trusted individuals. 

Months after months of  finding a job with no results (in which I admit that part of it is my own doing) my morale dropped, pretty bad. I am thinking that I am not good enough for them to hire, and they did not really agree on what I said during the interviews (that's right I talk what I really think, not what they want to hear). I started thinking that I am not good enough for anyone, even to the one I really love. 

I can my see my schoolmates having jobs and spending their hard-earned money to something, yet here I am still doing nothing. A lazy bum. With having my morale down, I began to question the choice I made, is this the right path I chose? I began to doubt myself, no job, no spending power, the one who's very special to me left me, it's like the universe is having a cruel joke on me.

Fortunately something inside me and from a help prevented me from turning into total wreck. A voice made it feel to me to never give, it's just a challenge. Follow my dreams, my plans, that this is my life. I just have to never give up on my dreams, always be prepared and make back-up plans, make support for my chosen path. 

So from that point I decided to grab any chances that may prove helpful and beneficial to my plans. Then there's the chance for me to pursue higher studies, without hesitation I grabbed it. I did not treat it as a "sideline" for my plan, rather I integrated it. Now it has a vital role for what I'm aiming for. 

Now with enough courage I am pursuing a milestone in my life, I am venturing into the unknown, into the road less traveled. It's going to be hard but it's worth it.