Archive for 2013
Playing Reality Assumption
I thought that PlayStation is a playground type where a player can interact with visual reality.
Yes, I am not joking, I really did thought of PlayStation as a virtual reality playground, a playground with obstacles. It started when I was in elementary school, I think we the class is waiting for the next subject or was it recess? I really didn't remember clearly but we had free time, so we do what usually we do when the teacher is not around yet, we talked to each other about TV Shows, toys, etc. I had this one classmate went to the house of my other classmate and he was talking excitedly what he did on our classmate's house. He said that it was really fun and his tone shows it. The two are talking about how fun it is to play in Jurassic Park, a game with obstacles, games like those. They said they're going to do it again.
It sounded to me as a very physical activity, so I thought that what they're playing is some sort of obstacle course or a playground where you can interact with virtual reality. It really had my curiosity but I never bothered to ask what is a PlayStation. For about two years or so, until I began my tertiary education that is what I think of PlayStation. I assumed that it is the fact and never bothered to learn more about it. I let my personal assumptions make the fact. And that is not the way it should be.
Camera-Ready Copy Dream and Objective
I was starting to get really bored again since two of my main objectives are on a slow pace (except for my two pet projects of course, a fragrance business and an online hub for a niche). I didn't the job I am applying for and I was informed that I need to take prerequisite courses for me to pursue my higher degree.
I can really feel the boredom coming in again, I want to go out to somehow repel it but I can't since I have no money. Unlike from where I came from, you need money to enjoy things here and cast boredom away. So that night I was just there sitting on the bed, drinking coffee while reading a book. Then I began to think about how the author can easily and comfortably dig through the books of a national library and national archives. I wonder if I can do that to. We'll see.
Then there's this article in the book about the 19th century restaurants that are still intact today, albeit with a different name, the history of a food and its connection to the culture. It's a wonder to think that these findings can be found somewhere in the library or the archives, one just need to have determination to dive through the documents. Because of that thinking, I eventually have an idea to write a book. Ideas came to me, like I should write a book about a native plant from my hometown or maybe I should write how can the general public use the nutrition from indigenous food or ingredients, or maybe a historical view of a particular group of food. So I did some research online and found out that I can submit my manuscript to a publishing house.
But before that I should practice more to improve my writing, as my writing is not that good to be an author of a book yet. I'll get there, to write as a decent author, not the best but a good author. I'm thinking of starting this en devour late next year as I am focusing on my two projects. I know that it's going to be challenging but I'm determined try it, to do it.
Revolution Negation
Scandals involving politicians are everywhere!
News of politicians squandering the nation's money is not new, but in today's time where news can spread quickly and where people's minds are more aware of the events (thanks to internet) this has become a big deal. With billions of the citizen's hard-earned money being stolen by the very people who should be helping them, it's hard not to feel infuriated.
With these problems, some even suggested of a revolution.We cannot blame them if they want a revolution, after all these revelations of corruption, emotions are running high! Now it made me think why do they want revolution? Are they serious? Revolution.
Revolution according to the Webster's Dictionary it is "usually violent attempt by many people to end the rule of one government and start a new one." So these people want a violent action to replace the government. But by whom?
There are different factions wanting to rule over the state, to have that seat of power. If a revolution should happen, these factions will take that opportunity to carry out their interests. This may cause into further crisis, chaos will be the rule of the day. The country will be thrown in confusion and unity will weaken. This moment of weakness may be taken advantage of other foreign nations to intrude our sovereignty. Events like won't benefit in the long run, one thing is certain that it is its citizens who will take the full effect of the problem. The people is not ready for a revolution.
I believe that in order for a better and lasting result we should strive for a change in society itself. The way we live our everyday lives, on how we do culturally and on how we think, these are the things we should look into. We must make ourselves want to change! For how is it any better if the government has changed but the society remains the same.
However I do not reject the idea of a revolution, it has come to me that I should not throw away ideas as it may become a possibility and a reality. A revolution is to be made when the other side is turning deaf on reason. Preparedness is also to be taken account, a good support from people of ALL walks particularly from the higher class. They will at all cost protect their interest, if they are not on the revolutionary side they will be a big trouble as they will likely throw support against the movement. A sudden revolution can only mean failure.
For as long as the means for changing the society and the culture of the people are not exhausted, we should always take this road as it will be better than that of a revolution. The change of society is better than the change of the ruler. A good society will bear an optimal government. We must not tire of fighting for the improvement in society and culture of the people.
Crumpled Space Material
There times that we feel like we know everything, it's like we hold the universe and all of its mystery. We are very confident in everything we do like we are going to ace without any significant effort, and with this reason we see ourselves are superior to other people around and that it's going to be hard to meet the person that equals our knowledge. We are blinded by that light, light that came from our dreams and fears.
Confidence turns into arrogance, a thing that is hard to see with all the fog of disillusionment. We simply give it a shrug a small matter compared to the goals we want to achieve. Our vision are now blinded by the bright and sharp light of our dreams, little did we know that it is going to be the very thing that will drag us down to hell. Yes it very hard to say no to the flowery words and sweet smell that arrogance wants to give us. It's like the materials and the plane of existence are bending over backward for us.
It's too late, too late to realize that we are in for a tormenting of our lives. Hypocrites and Red-eyes are upon us, we become one with them. Are these real? Are these even worth thinking? Maybe. Maybe not. We are here existing for some reason, can it be that the reason is for us to become a waste of energy or something even more positive? Only our inner selves can tell.
Journey to the Other Path
It has come to me where my status in life is.
It's been over a year since I graduated from school, it's also the time when I decided not to find a job right away and take the time to really think what I want to do and at the same time have some rest. Kind of let it all loose, relax from those fifteen years of academic life, at the same time planning about the future.
So after less than a year I decided to actively find a job to finance my plans. The first tries I would have to say are good, they invited me for interviews, I responded to some of them. Yes, some. I didn't go to some of the interviews for the reason of I'm not just feeling it. This is a fact I have yet to share to my small circle of trusted individuals.
Months after months of finding a job with no results (in which I admit that part of it is my own doing) my morale dropped, pretty bad. I am thinking that I am not good enough for them to hire, and they did not really agree on what I said during the interviews (that's right I talk what I really think, not what they want to hear). I started thinking that I am not good enough for anyone, even to the one I really love.
I can my see my schoolmates having jobs and spending their hard-earned money to something, yet here I am still doing nothing. A lazy bum. With having my morale down, I began to question the choice I made, is this the right path I chose? I began to doubt myself, no job, no spending power, the one who's very special to me left me, it's like the universe is having a cruel joke on me.
Fortunately something inside me and from a help prevented me from turning into total wreck. A voice made it feel to me to never give, it's just a challenge. Follow my dreams, my plans, that this is my life. I just have to never give up on my dreams, always be prepared and make back-up plans, make support for my chosen path.
So from that point I decided to grab any chances that may prove helpful and beneficial to my plans. Then there's the chance for me to pursue higher studies, without hesitation I grabbed it. I did not treat it as a "sideline" for my plan, rather I integrated it. Now it has a vital role for what I'm aiming for.
Now with enough courage I am pursuing a milestone in my life, I am venturing into the unknown, into the road less traveled. It's going to be hard but it's worth it.
Cool Surprise
A fridge full of surprises!
Remember that time when internet is not yet widely used, same with smartphones, tablets and those kind of things. One of the things I used to do or still do sometimes is looking inside the refrigerator, hoping that something delicious will turn up. Well I do this at different times of the day and nothing really happens.
But what if, let's say, it's a magic fridge? And every time you open it something new will turn up like a Swiss cheese, a goat or a game console. There's no limit what it can give, there's no telling until the fridge is opened. It is up to the guts of the person who may or may not open it. Will it be good or will it be a disaster?
How the magic fridge operates is worth to be mentioned. It may have the "magic" in its name (How can an inanimate object name itself?) but it does not magically make things, instead it takes whatever it shows from somewhere. So if a handful of money turns up it can only mean that somewhere someone is desperately looking for their money. But one who opened the fridge does not have any knowledge of the fridge works, the person spends the money, and the police tracked the serial printed on the money, and arrests the person.
Are the humans ready for this kind of thing? Who knows? But I bet it's interesting.
Are the humans ready for this kind of thing? Who knows? But I bet it's interesting.
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Line of Age Limit
For some reason I don't think that I will grow old.
I just don't see myself as an old person. Thirty to forty years for me is enough if I already finished what I need to do. I think that there is no point for me to live longer if already finished what I need to do. I've done my part and I think that it's the next one's job to their part. I don't want to end up being attended to, I don't want them to respect me just because I'm old and frail. I don't want that.
I want them to spend their lives not tending to my needs. Because I know for sure that I will be frustrated when my body and mind will fail me.
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Lying On My Back
It is really hard to dream about someone you love the most.
It is hard to dream about someone you are trying to move on from, specially if they are the ones who cut the ties with you. While they feel relieved and happy with slight feeling of sadness, I am left out with gloominess, with nothing to comfort me but myself. It is hard. I have to convince myself that it's not entirely my fault why the relationship broke up, I have to try to calm myself, try to cheer myself up and all of this while hurting.
It still stings. The way it happened, is like having a boot out of nowhere smash into my face leaving me lying on back wondering what happened, it also felt like killing me softly kind of thing, the voice on the other line was calm and casual while I, hate to admit, that I cannot hold back my tears while listening. How can you do that easily? Why could you choose to hurt both us?
What happened have effects on my way of thinking things about this matter. I believed that we are strong, and we can take all of the challenges, we should know, we survived four years worth of problems. We believed in each other. But with this breaking up thing, I don't see for other relationships to survive, I don't see the point of marriage, since we can hear about couple separations in the news, forums etc. and to think that there is a considerably amount of years in their family life. This whole relationship stuff, this will only hurt and kill me. I should have listen to my 10 year old self to not to fall in love. (Sorry kid, I should have listened to you. I am sorry.)
Why would you do this, brain? Making me dream of the one I love I am forcing myself to remove from my life? Why would you make me dream of the one I love I am forcing myself to get out of my head? Why would you make me dream of the one I love I am forcing myself to cut emotional ties from? Why would you do that? Why would you make me dream about the one who hurt me? Why would you make me dream about the girl I truly love.
Humans are interesting.
I tried to not have all this drama, but I cannot deny that my emotions are kicking in, always butting in. Always making me tear up and cry during unexpected times. If only I can cut emotions entirely just to save me from this. If I only can. Maybe that's the next thing I will do.
I want to grab that hope. I want to be strong.
Perks of Being a Nobody
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What happens when you are not popular?
I am not the social type of person in-person, I don't strike conversation with strangers, they usually do the first move and my length and quality of replies depends to the person, I don't go to what can be called as social events such as clubbing or something similar, all this because I am just lazy and don't want to waste my efforts.
With this situation, it is given that I'm not popular.
One thing I love is that there are few to no people ever gives me their attention. I feel secured, away from judging eyes and expectations. I can do whatever I want! It feels like I'm in a world designed and run by me, I can bend realities and make them too, I can transform things at will, and I can make things happen. I love this.
Though being a person who everybody barely notices is a good thing for me, it still has its downside. When I'm trying to make a point, no one would listen and take me seriously. It is very frustrating! Sometimes I wonder if these people can only take famous or well-known people's ideas and opinions seriously.
The coin has two sides.
It's Raining
It's raining outside.
My second to the best favored weather is when it's raining, it makes me somewhat happy and just want to snuggle in my blanket while on the bed watching T.V and sipping soup. Then it came to me that what if it is not water that is falling down, what if something else is falling down?
What if it started raining chicken manure?
What if it started raining cow dung?
What if it started raining people?
What if it started raining dead people?
What if it started raining laptops?
It'll be very weird! People will panic as they seek for shelter. Sooner or later a crisis will ensue and this will bring the worst and best of the people. Or hide the feelings of those who don't want to show it.
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Full Moon Cart
I always wanted to open a food cart that only opens during a full moon.
It's going to be like one of those that served noodles with a variety of additions of the customer's choosing. The noodles will be tasty and sure to capture the palette of the people. They'll keep coming back, of course, when the cart is open.
The concept of being exclusively open during full moons will add to the food cart's reputation being mysterious. The cart will spawn all sorts urban myths and legends, either positive or negative, people will be curious and will go to the cart to try it's food, in which they will taste one of the best noodle they ever eaten.
How about the profits?
I do not intend this as a profit shop. I tend to view this a concept shop that people will check out. The shop's only way to catch customers are its delicious noodle dishes which they will crave for and will make them anticipate for full moons to happen.
If the cart is already boring a whole through my personal finance, I'll give it a break then come bac when I can support it or it can support itself. The profit of this cart need not to be high.
Conspiring Universe
What if all the things we think or want happens?
We formulate plans in our heads, think of things we want to happen, of goals we want to achieve and on how to make them happen. The plans we make in our mind are of wonder, they are brilliant and satisfying! Usually it involves a lot of effort and money.
The common obstacles in the path of realizing our plans are efforts and money. Efforts can also be translated into time, we need precise time and the amount of effort in laying out the plan we have. Everything is calculated and measured. Money, we need financing to execute the plan, may it be to acquire the materials needed or to get services.
But if we don't have neither of those? In terms of effort we are surely to have it, we have the passion, we control it, but it is different story when it comes to time, we cannot control time and the relevant factors around it. We may be too busy and we can't do about it because it may be because of work, we are inside a barrier of time that devoid us of the opportunity to carry out our plan. Of money, it is a fact that this is a big factor, we need financing to have our plans have their percentage increase. We need to buy stuff or acquire a service, so that the plan comes to life. How grandiose or simple your plan may be, money certainly has a say to it.
It would be good if our plans come into realization without facing these hurdles, may our plans be realistic or not. The universe conspires to help us, to make us lucky, and give us the thing we want. It would feel good. It would lessen the pain caused by thoughts of having not our plans realized just because we cannot jump over these obstacles.
How I Am
If I could just erase those memories.
It's been weeks, I cannot fool myself anymore, I have to admit that I am down, hurt.
Since she broke up with me, I've been down in the dumps. For the reasons that her love for me is waning and that she does not want me to use the excuse of she having to time for each other, when I told her I'm OK with because I understand the situation she still chose to hurt me. She chose to leave me.
She said she felt relieved, she felt free now that she leave me. And she insists the we should move on and be open that she may fall in love with another man. Why? I keep on asking myself, Why did she leave me? Why didn't she make it work? I already did my part to understand her situation, her being busy in her work. Why didn't she fight for our relationship and just pressed the quick exit button? Why does she insist to move on and be open to the thought of her may fall in love with another man? Why? Am I not good enough for that she wants another man? What difference will it make if she fall in love with another man if her reasons for leaving me are that real and strong? I am really in tatters right now. I feel helpless. It's unfair, all of it.
She's taking it with pain but not as much pain as I feel. In a week after she broke up with me, she can smile again in front of a camera, I don't know how she does that! Yes I am weak. She said that we are different people and on how we handle break-ups. But after four years we shared, and she is taking it lightly!
Four years of challenges, trials and triumphs, four years of moments we had together, plans we made, the laughter and tears that we shared all went down the drain. I don't get why she chose to make it hard for the both of us. We didn't had any fights prior to her decision, and that adds up to the pain knowing that you haven't done anything wrong, everything is fine and peaceful then suddenly something hits you right in the face, she is breaking up with you. Those memories! It is really hard! If I can only burn those memories so I wouldn't hurt this bad! If only I can do that.
But I am really confused and can't say anything on what to do with those memories.
I am taking this out here, I have no one to talk to, scared to talk about this to anyone. Now I feel how she felt when I am on an angry fit when we argue on a matter, I am very sorry about it. Right now I find it hard to talk to someone about this situation I am facing. It reminds me of the pain she threw me that day she broke up with me.
Hard to Believe
Today I just want to put a song here. I am not going to lie, this is what I am feeling now.
Hard to Believe
(Eraserheads)
I find it hard to believe
That all the pain that we are feeling
Has some meaning in this world
It's so hard to believe
That everything you see is different
From the things that you've been told
I wanted life to be this way
Just a little bit of love could mean so much
O please don't take it all away
But with you heaven is still close enough to touch
I find it hard to believe
That someone up there is waiting
With arms open wide and smiling
It's so hard to believe
When someone told me that your suffering
Is what you get for living
I wanted life to be this way
Just a little bit of love could mean so much
O please don't take it all away
But with you heaven is still close enough to touch
Because your love is still the only thing
That matters in this world
The only thing I can believe...
Please someone help, someone do something. I'm confused and hurt.
Twice in a Lifetime
"You only have one lifetime."
Well that's how the saying goes, you can only have one life, do things with it, and then die. I've been thinking, is that really it? I mean only have one life? What is life anyway? Can you have at least two different lives?
Then out of the blue it struck me. I have to define to myself what is life.
Life aside from being biological in nature, it is how live and it is how you view things. There can be new people in your life, new ideologies, new place to live, in a can it is a new outlook on different things.
When I get sufficient amount of money (BIG amount) and emotionally ready, maybe, I'll add in a plan to orchestrate my fake death.
Yes, fake death. Brilliant.
I'll use my wealth to plan this out, from legal works to how I will execute my own death in front of people who know me. It can be an accident or "natural" death. But can I stand the grief of people of know me? That's what the "emotionally ready" is for. I'll use my wealth to have me train to remove or lessen my emotions, only to have them back when I'm starting my new second life.
I think it'll be great. Me living in my new home, leading a new life, new people, new views. I can see it, me looking down on my previous life's tomb, being discreet as possible so no one I knew see me.
I think it'll be great, new life, and away from it all.
Spinning Pancake Invasion
When pancakes rise against humans.
Being fed up of being a breakfast item, pancakes wanted to be recognized more by having T.V shows, movies, tours, their own trailer, a limousine and merchandise. These requests did not go well with the Human-Inanimate Objects Court, and without hesitation rejected the pancakes' notion.
With the support from the Order of New Dominion of Inanimate Objects, the pancakes hatched a plan to overthrow mankind. ONDIO provided the pancake folk with sufficient technology to carry out their plan. With the ability of flight and shooting lasers they head out to their newly built base of operations. The moon.
The pancakes were too smart to use conventional warfare. They studied mankind and collected information. Days passed and they were able to gather sufficient intelligence. The Buttered Pancake Supreme Leader ordered its agents to bribe human government officials, those who are weak-willed to abandon arms and go their side instead. Instantly, with the promise of unlimited pancakes, the human traitors went to their new masters.
The move weakened the defensive strength of humans.
On the other side of the field, the humans invoked the treaties and agreements from other races they forged. From the 3rd dimension, the Humping Camels responded to the call and sent its five thousand strong forces. The Exploding Cellphones of the 5th dimension sent their artillery for defensive measures. The Candy People from the 6th dimension led by a Princess and two knights arrived with fifty giants. The Ninja Cats from the 2nd dimension, however did not came to the call.
The Alliance of Humans, Humping Camels, Exploding Cellphones and Candy People set up their equipment and forces according to the plan. The Alliance Commander, General Jumbo lead the laying out of the defense.
Back at the Pancake Moon Base, the Buttered Pancake Supreme Leader is itching to destroy the humans. With these he ordered the attack. Thousands of pancakes flew towards Earth at great speed.
The Alliance anticipated this attack. The skies became golden brown and the smell of freshly cooked pancake emerged. With great pride the alliance soldiers started barraging the skies with anti-pancake missiles. In return, the pancakes started firing their lasers, turning everyone into a bottle of honey.
There are pancakes everywhere! Despite the combined forces of the Alliance, the pancakes easily turn almost everyone into honey! General Jumbo still defiant, ordered to use fire-throwers. But this didn't work, because the pancakes are now fire proof! The soldiers' morale dived down. They were fighting but with no heart. Some of them stare blankly in the sky while tears run down face.
The lighting speed of the pancakes' apparent victory is to much to bear. Almost all of the human lose hope.
But out of nowhere, Ninja Cats arrived!
The Ninja Cats known for their appetite for pancakes started devouring spinning pancakes. Winning it for the alliance
The end.
Lurking, Ready to Pounce
Someone is watching me.
I tried to lure it out, I did not succeed.
I cannot tell its exact features but I can surely tell it's watching my every move, with those judgmental eyes. As if I did something wrong to it or maybe even planning to do something evil.
That is what usually happens when I go to a grocery or a mall. Sales people, always follow me.
Now I know that they need some quota to meet but tailing a customer is never a good idea, they might lose a potential customer. The customer may feel uncomfortable, they will be pressured and they don't want that. A good sales person knows how respect the customer and know when they are needed.
Now given that they don't need to meet a minimum sale, a tailing a customer is an offending act. This gives an impression to the customer that they are being treated as a suspicious person. What's more insulting that sales person can possibly do is what want to call as "profiling".
By profiling, they allow those people who are well dressed, good-looking, and seemingly rich roam the store uninterrupted, but it's different for those people who dresses simple, not having the looks of these "celebrities" and anyone who did not pass to their standard of being "rich".
If I can only stay away from those eyes.
The Attack of the Flying Bagoong Bottles
What will it be like if flying bagoong bottles came out of the sky and start attacking humanity?
On a beautiful Sunday morning while having a relaxing time with your friends or family in an open field, a legion flying bagoong bottles suddenly came out of the sky!
Their bodies are stout while some are slender are filled with bagoong, using their silver metallic wings to fly at great speed vertically and horizontally. The way of their attack was to smash themselves in everything they want to, causing significant damages, and smell. While for some people who are eating "indian mango" or kare-kare, this is a blessing, but for the majority this is a big problem, especially those who dress themselves up pretentiously and slaving their lives away to consumerism.
The flying bagoong will make their way into cities, towns, big or small. They will terrorize people by smashing their own bodies with tasty condiments to every person they find. The town will be in a big mess! People running here and there, protecting what are important to them, ignoring others who need help. Screams of people in agony will fill the air, tears will water the grounds.
Most of the population will give up, losing hope and accept their doom. But all is not lost to some people, people who loves to eat indian mango and kare-kare.
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