Life According to the Hyper Radioactive Neophyte

I thought that PlayStation is a playground type where a player can interact with visual reality.

Yes, I am not joking, I really did thought of PlayStation as a virtual reality playground, a playground with obstacles. It started when I was in elementary school, I think we the class is waiting for the next subject or was it recess? I really didn't remember clearly but we had free time, so we do what usually we do when the teacher is not around yet, we talked to each other about TV Shows, toys, etc. I had this one classmate went to the house of my other classmate and he was talking excitedly what he did on our classmate's house. He said that it was really fun and his tone shows it. The two are talking about how fun it is to play in Jurassic Park, a game with obstacles, games like those. They said they're going to do it again.

It sounded to me as a very physical activity, so I thought that what they're playing is some sort of obstacle course or a playground where you can interact with virtual reality. It really had my curiosity but I never bothered to ask what is a PlayStation. For about two years or so, until I began my tertiary education that is what I think of PlayStation. I assumed that it is the fact and never bothered to learn more about it. I let my personal assumptions make the fact. And that is not the way it should be.

I was starting to get really bored again since two of my main objectives are on a slow pace (except for my two pet projects of course, a fragrance business and an online hub for a niche). I didn't the job I am applying for and I was informed that I need to take prerequisite courses for me to pursue my higher degree. 

I can really feel the boredom coming in again, I want to go out to somehow repel it but I can't since I have no money. Unlike from where I came from, you need money to enjoy things here and cast boredom away. So that night I was just there sitting on the bed, drinking coffee while reading a book. Then I began to think about how the author can easily and comfortably dig through the books of a national library and national archives. I wonder if I can do that to. We'll see.

Then there's this article in the book about the 19th century restaurants that are still intact today, albeit with a different name, the history of a food and its connection to the culture. It's a wonder to think that these findings can be found somewhere in the library or the archives, one just need to have determination to dive through the documents. Because of that thinking, I eventually have an idea to write a book. Ideas came to me, like I should write a book about a native plant from my hometown or maybe I should write how can the general public use the nutrition from indigenous food or ingredients, or maybe a historical view of a particular group of food. So I did some research online and found out that I can submit my manuscript to a publishing house.

But before that I should practice more to improve my writing, as my writing is not that good to be an author of a book yet. I'll get there, to write as a decent author, not the best but a good author. I'm thinking of starting this en devour late next year as I am focusing on my two projects. I know that it's going to be challenging but I'm determined try it, to do it.

News of politicians squandering the nation's money is not new, but in today's time where news can spread quickly and where people's minds are more aware of the events (thanks to internet) this has become a big deal. With billions of the citizen's hard-earned money being stolen by the very people who should be helping them, it's hard not to feel infuriated.

With these problems, some even suggested of a revolution.We cannot blame them if they want a revolution, after all these revelations of corruption, emotions are running high! Now it made me think why do they want revolution? Are they serious? Revolution.

Revolution according to the Webster's Dictionary it is "usually violent attempt by many people to end the rule of one government and start a new one." So these people want a violent action to replace the government. But by whom?

There are different factions wanting to rule over the state, to have that seat of power. If a revolution should happen, these factions will take that opportunity to carry out their interests. This may cause into further crisis, chaos will be the rule of the day. The country will be thrown in confusion and unity will weaken. This moment of weakness may be taken advantage of other foreign nations to intrude our sovereignty. Events like won't benefit in the long run, one thing is certain that it is its citizens who will take the full effect of the problem. The people is not ready for a revolution.

I believe that in order for a better and lasting result we should strive for a change in society itself. The way we live our everyday lives, on how we do culturally and on how we think, these are the things we should look into. We must make ourselves want to change! For how is it any better if the government has changed but the society remains the same. 

However I do not reject the idea of a revolution, it has come to me that I should not throw away ideas as it may become a possibility and a reality. A revolution is to be made when the other side is turning deaf on reason. Preparedness is also to be taken account, a good support from people of ALL walks particularly from the higher class. They will at all cost protect their interest, if they are not on the revolutionary side they will be a big trouble as they will likely throw support against the movement. A sudden revolution can only mean failure.

For as long as the means for changing the society and the culture of the people are not exhausted, we should always take this road as it will be better than that of a revolution. The change of society is better than the change of the ruler. A good society will bear an optimal government. We must not tire of fighting for the improvement in society and culture of the people.

There times that we feel like we know everything, it's like we hold the universe and all of its mystery. We are very confident in everything we do like we are going to ace without any significant effort, and with this reason we see ourselves are superior to other people around and that it's going to be hard to meet the person that equals our knowledge. We are blinded by that light, light that came from our dreams and fears.

It has come to me where my status in life is.

It's been over a year since I graduated from school, it's also the time when I decided not to find a job right away and take the time to really think what I want to do and at the same time have some rest. Kind of let it all loose, relax from those fifteen years of academic life, at the same time planning about the future.

So after less than a year I decided to actively find a job to finance my plans. The first tries I would have to say are good, they invited me for interviews, I responded to some of them. Yes, some. I didn't go to some of the interviews for the reason of I'm not just feeling it. This is a fact I have yet to share to my small circle of trusted individuals. 

Months after months of  finding a job with no results (in which I admit that part of it is my own doing) my morale dropped, pretty bad. I am thinking that I am not good enough for them to hire, and they did not really agree on what I said during the interviews (that's right I talk what I really think, not what they want to hear). I started thinking that I am not good enough for anyone, even to the one I really love. 

I can my see my schoolmates having jobs and spending their hard-earned money to something, yet here I am still doing nothing. A lazy bum. With having my morale down, I began to question the choice I made, is this the right path I chose? I began to doubt myself, no job, no spending power, the one who's very special to me left me, it's like the universe is having a cruel joke on me.

Fortunately something inside me and from a help prevented me from turning into total wreck. A voice made it feel to me to never give, it's just a challenge. Follow my dreams, my plans, that this is my life. I just have to never give up on my dreams, always be prepared and make back-up plans, make support for my chosen path. 

So from that point I decided to grab any chances that may prove helpful and beneficial to my plans. Then there's the chance for me to pursue higher studies, without hesitation I grabbed it. I did not treat it as a "sideline" for my plan, rather I integrated it. Now it has a vital role for what I'm aiming for. 

Now with enough courage I am pursuing a milestone in my life, I am venturing into the unknown, into the road less traveled. It's going to be hard but it's worth it.

Remember that time when internet is not yet widely used, same with smartphones, tablets and those kind of things. One of the things I used to do or still do sometimes is looking inside the refrigerator, hoping that something delicious will turn up. Well I do this at different times of the day and nothing really happens.

But what if, let's say, it's a magic fridge? And every time you open it something new will turn up like a Swiss cheese, a goat or a game console. There's no limit what it can give, there's no telling until the fridge is opened. It is up to the guts of the person who may or may not open it. Will it be good or will it be a disaster? 

How the magic fridge operates is worth to be mentioned. It may have the "magic" in its name (How can an inanimate object name itself?) but  it does not magically make things, instead it takes whatever it shows from somewhere. So if a handful of money turns up it can only mean that somewhere someone is desperately looking for their money. But one who opened the fridge does not have any knowledge of the fridge works, the person spends the money, and the police tracked the serial printed on the money, and arrests the person.

Are the humans ready for this kind of thing? Who knows? But I bet it's interesting.

I just don't see myself as an old person. Thirty to forty years for me is enough if I already finished what I need to do. I think that there is no point for me to live longer if already finished what I need to do. I've done my part and I think that it's the next one's job to their part. I don't want to end up being attended to, I don't want them to respect me just because I'm old and frail. I don't want that.